| Monday, January 12th, 2004 |
Ever wonder why life just keeps slugging away while you’re down? Its not that I’m asking for pity (which would be useless, anyways), but I really do think that of all the people I know, my life sucks the most right now. Consider this:
- Mid November 2003: Lost my job, which I’d had less than two months.
- Early December 2003: Found out that my boyfriend cheated on me, which is hard to do considering we were in an “open” relationship
- Late December 2003: After a thoroughly disappointing Christmas in which I spent all of two hours with my biological family over the 24th-26th, I find out more dishonesty from the soon-to-be-ex-boyfriend. Boyfriend flips over my fraternizing with another gay boy, despite so-called “open relationship.” Lesson learned: Its okay for him, but not for me.
- New Years Day 2004: Got dumped by boyfriend of two years two months. He is totally unwilling to reconcile our problems. Which isn’t news, because he hasn’t been for about two months now.
- Early January 2004: Influenza virus given to me by ex-boyfriend. I suffer at home while he goes on a ski trip we planned months ago.
Granted, the fact that the break-up is still fresh and I have this nasty little flu virus as a momento of our time together have both probably made me somewhat cynical about the whole thing. And I am sure that there are other versions of the story above, which emphasize my not having a job.
At this point, running a constant fever of over 100 degrees, I’m not really in a position to care.
Bright and sunshiny memories aside, I have a few goals for the immediate future.
- Get healthy (by tomorrow? i hope?)
- Get a job (within a week)
- Get a new place (currently living with the ex… its not really very fun)
Hopefully I can accomplish these easy goals… I just feel soooo incredibly unable to move. I’ll post more later or tomorrow, when (hopefully) I’m feeling healthier.
